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Thoughts - random and spoilerish.

I got the book this morning at 8:48AM. I ran downstairs in a nightshirt, an inside-out skirt and a snood, which was better than my husband's baseball cap. I carefully opened the package so as to avoid tearing any letters, and I read until I finished at 2:35PM.

So. First and foremost.

Severus Snape is NOT a traitor or a murderer. He did exactly as Dumbledore wanted him to do. And I refuse to hear or believe anything else. The other choices were unacceptable - either Draco becomes a murderer or Snape dies, due to that oath he took. Which Dumbledore was fully aware of. I don't think Dumbledore expected to survive that night.

This also makes Snape more valuable to the Order as he goes deeper undercover.

The book was much better than OotP. It was tighter, it was impossible to put down and there were no boring parts. And it had me laughing and had me crying. Oh, goodness. Madam Bones! That hit me hard and fast, you know?

And I'm going to say right now that I am so jealous of the shippers. Because at least some of you got your ships. And while my own OTP isn't quite ruined, it's been made much more difficult - Harry is still fascinated by Malfoy, enough that he forgets even Ginny. So.

And I can even rationalize Remus/Tonks by saying it doesn't preclude Sirius at all. Even if I really don't like it.

But I'll never see my OTPs. And, well. Life isn't fair, is it? :)

And my whole house-elf theory? Shot to pieces. Also, my current fic? More thoroughly jossed than I could have ever imagined, but I'm still writing it. I hope someone reads it when I'm done.


Snape's been working for Dumbledore for at least seventeen years, and was his Headmaster for seven years before that. Dumbledore saved him from Azkaban. He worked with Voldemort for a couple of years (from leaving Hogwarts until James and Lily were killed) and then has been spying on him for two more. Which one would know him better?
I don't know...Dumbledore said the only (or maybe the strongest) power that kept Harry from even being tempted by Voldemort's strength and power was his purity in heart, his ability to love. Does Snape have that? I doubt it: no friends, hated and ridiculed by his classmates, practically swimming in the Dark Arts, not to mention his pure and unadulturated hatred for Harry. On the other hand, perhaps Snape's is loyal to Dumbledore (if that's the case) precicely because of Dumbledore's love (trust?) for Snape.

If lack of ability to love was a requirement for a Death Eater, I don't think there would be many. Bellatrix loves Voldemort. Draco loves his parents. I suspect Lucius loves his son. Narcissa loves both.

I got the impression that Snape and Lucius were friends, for that matter. And would Snape have called himself what he did if he didn't harbor positive feelings towards his mother?

Having the ability to love isn't enough. Purity of heart (which seems to be defined as having no desire for power)is also important - and Snape does fail there.

Does Snape love Dumbledore? I don't know. Loyalty and love are different things, after all.

If he did - it makes what he *had* to do even more difficult.

And Dumbledore trusts too easily - witness our favorite sociopath. There are worse flaws, but few as dangerous.

Assuredly Snape's been tempted. But his motivations for coming back to the right side could have been other than through love -- it could have been as simple as "All of this is very illegal, and I really don't want to go to Azkaban." Not a very pure motive, but certainly effective.