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Not doing well at grown-up

I'm trying. I'm really trying, but...


Okay, Jonathan is safely at his parents, and has been since 4PM last night. He also called me at 11:20 (after the Daily Show opening segment, and while his parents were watching their weather reports.)

As for me - I was reluctant to go home (even though I always go home to an empty apartment.) I went to Barnes and Noble and got Charlene Schurch's Sensational Knitted Socks, plus a Vogue Knitting and Barbara Ehrenreich's Bait and Switch . Then I took the train home and had Chinese for dinner. I was good - half of it is my lunch today.

The rest of the night, I knit and watched television, except for a half hour when I went online to answer comments. And my intention was to stop knitting and read for a bit before going to sleep at around midnight.

You know. Like a responsible grown-up. Except- I didn't.

And then I was tired and I made a *really* dumb mistake, and because of the *really* dumb mistake, I stayed up until 2AM. I'm working on a wrap with a 4 line pattern - ABCD. And for some reason, I purled a row C when I should have done a row A, and I didn't realize it until I started the next and it was clear I should be on D, not B. Which meant I had to unknit (or "tink") the entire row I had just done, while trying to preserve the yarn over/decrease pattern of the row below that. Pitsky work. Now, I could have just put the project down at that point.

But no.

I had to not only rework, properly, the row I'd done wrong, I also had to knit the next one just to feel complete. And then I had to pick up my sock and make a tiny mistake in that, and not be able to correct it. At which point, it was 2AM, and I realized that this was stupid, and I put the sock down, mistake intact. And then I read for a page or so and tried to go to sleep.

Because, you see. The room was far too quiet. The night had cooled enough that the ac had gone off, and there was no husband person on the other side of the bed snoring away. Or, you know, at all. I did sleep eventually, but woke up at seven.

And I didn't get to make coffee for myself, either. I did the other things I had to do - I *have* to eat breakfast now (my latest one is Special K (2/3 cup) and soy milk because I'm not good with cow's, with a sprinkling of nuts and/or fruit) and got the bus to work. Only it came late. And so did my subway connection.

I was late enough that I decided I might as well buy a cup of coffee on the way in. And then no one was there, so *that* gamble paid off.

I'll try to be better at grown-up tonight. Really.

Comments

When Dave works late, he wont get home until sometimes 5 in the morning and I end up staying up way to late also.

It's the lack of warm body and breathing and snoring, I think.

I'm glad this doesn't happen that often.

i can relate....

my insomnia has never been so bad since i left my husband, and then once puppy died, i've been up until 5 or 6 almost nightly...

it just really doesn't feel right to be the only person in a house...

I don't mind the being alone qua being alone. I don't like the being alone without *him*.

Well, you do better at grown-up than I do. I can stay up really late on the computer even if I have to go to work the next day. I can't at the moment because I have to go to my parents' place and borrow their phone line for dialup, but as soon as I get my connection back - farewell grown-up. *LOL*

There's a reason I got off the computer at eleven (besides my need for my daily fix of, well, Daily Show and Jon Stewart.) If I hadn't, I *would* have been on all night. And that's half the reason Jonathan called when he did - it was at my request to yell at me to get off the computer if I hadn't already.

I can so relate to that.
I can pull it off ecause I live alone. Xena doesn't yell at me for being online too long.

Yeah, I know that one all too well.

Hopefully, we can be knit geeks tomorrow evening. We are still on for about 7 pm, right?

7:30. Gotta have time to shop and pick up my comics.

And do some straightening out.

Okay. I did have it correctly in my calendar. See you tomorrow.

Well, at least it was the easy parts of not gown-up.

My sleep habits are normally late- usually to 2 or 3 AM. But for the past few days it's been like 4 or 5 AM. Just that little bit can screw you up. And I've had things to do during daytime so I had to get up like normal! I need to go take a nap now.

See - 2-3AM would be my preferred time if I had my way.

Sadly, I do not.

I'll try to be better at grown-up tonight. Really.

Why?

*coming out on age* I turn 60 at the end of this month and I gave up bothering to be grown up decades ago.

I should have phrased it better.

Pretending to be grown-up would work better.

(And if you haven't grown up by the time you're thirty, you don't have to.)

And your posts don't look 60. No grey hair or *anything*.

I suck at making myself go to bed at a decent hour, especially when Val's gone. So you're not alone.

Nod. But I will go to bed at a decent hour tonight because I spent the day either groggy or wired.

20 can go to bed at 3AM and not feel the effects. 30 can shrug the effects off.

40 *can't*.