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December 2010
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Mama Deb [userpic]
Yom Kippur 5769

Night and day from last year. Last year, I'd had a stomach virus a couple days earlier that dehydrated me to the point that I couldn't fully rehydrate in time for Yom Kippur. Which, again, is no food/no water for 25 hours. Normally, I spend a significant portion of the night going to the bathroom because I'm, if anything, overwatered. Which I did Wednesday night, but not last year.

Last year, therefore, I was very bad by the end of the morning services, at about 1:30-2PM. I was bad enough that people made me eat and drink, which was so very hard. I went home to bed and stayed there, except for saying afternoon and final services alone, until it was full night.

This year, in my seat surrounded by friends, I was *fine*. I mean, I was hungry and I got a headache at one part, and it's always worse around mealtimes, and I sat whenever possible, but I was never dizzy and I felt fine. In fact, I didn't break my fast until after the evening service, about 7:30. I had several people making a point of asking how I was because of last year.

Also, other than one portion, I managed most of the service using my Hebrew-only machzor - mostly because it was lighter than the Hebrew-English. That gets important by the end.

I got into the prayers a time or two, but the best thing was watching Joy. Joy turned twelve this past summer, so this was her first *real* Yom Kippur, the first time it counted. She'd fasted last year, but knew she could stop when she wanted to. And you could just *feel* how important it was for her, how much she felt it. It was beautiful.

Comments

I was bad enough that people made me eat and drink

Yes and thank goodness they did.

I'm happy to hear you were able to participate fully in this year's prayer and services -- I know how deeply meaningful you find them.

This is a beautiful comment. I'm just going to agree with it. *agrees*

I know. I love the people in my shul, and I'm grateful they cared so much.

I don't know how much I participated. I always believe I can do much better. I *know* I can do much better. However, at least I tried.

I don't know how much I participated. I always believe I can do much better. I *know* I can do much better. However, at least I tried.

And yet another example of how your faith and its rituals are so deeply meaningful for you.

The rites and rituals are tools of exploration and reflection. It's a process, not a check-list.

I came down with the flu Tuesday night. Wednesday I was only able to keep down one English muffin. As for liquids, single swallows of water at a time. By doctor's orders I did drink on Thursday, but I did not eat, until after Havdalah. My blood sugar seemed to stabilize at 84.

I hope you feel better soon. I'm also glad you listened to your doctor.